Choices We Make

When you’re young, everything seems like the end of the world.

The beautiful thing about an ending; though terribly unsettling at first, is our resilience to bounce back – to chase what we’re after. We truly believe nothing can get in our way. The ignorance of youth. We haven’t been exposed to enough rejections to wave the white flag and call it quits. Oh, if we knew what the future holds! We’d crawl underneath our bed covers and wait for the plague to pass. I guess that’s the beauty of living in the present. This feeling of invincibility that only few possess; the feeling that things will turn out for the better; the feeling of hope. Did something cross your mind just now? A long dreaded step towards your goal that’s been postponed for too long? Perhaps a declaration of love? Maybe we all need a surge of encouragement; in the words of Benjamin Mee, ‘sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it.’

To put it figuratively; imagine climbing a flight of stairs that is too tedious to fathom, almost demotivating to some. But, when you make it past the first step, you’re in, you’re game. This is a slippery slope; either your fear will get the better of you, convincing you that making it to the top is a fantasy that will never materialise. Or, you could go onwards and upwards, visualising your success when you make it to the top. However, it’s also a learning curve. Sometimes, you’d be so excited and take on two at a time. You’d experience you’re running out of breath, your legs are getting sore, and there would be some days where you can’t take a step further. Remember, as long as you’re a player, your struggles are moulding your perspective, making an impact to your life that is so beautiful, so worthy of your physical and mental investment.

Then, there would be times where you look for accolade where it isn’t yet earned, for guaranteed immunity in return for your efforts, or perhaps you look down at those who have only begun their journey on this flight of stairs. In my opinion, there are two things people should stray away from to have not only a peaceful mind, but a positive and healthy one too: and they’re 1) malice and 2) jealousy. Every human being has a life filled with sorrow, love, regret, hope, pain and happiness; as a species we all experience such feelings. But their stories are different evermore; for it is what makes us wonderfully different. Which is why we are not to compare ourselves to where we could have been had we chosen ‘their’ path; instead, for every good piece of news, be abundantly, ridiculously happy. After all, ask yourself: when you finally make it as a designer, scientist, financial guru, or whoever you want to be – would you want anyone to feel so unpleasantly towards you?

I hope it doesn’t sound like I’m preaching, it is just truly my belief that we should feel more love than we do anything else.

We are always searching for more. It is only natural; possibly an innate instinct. As for me, I’m just looking for inspiration that would decorate the brackets in between the first and last step of my journey with sparks, wildfire and an effervescent love for beautiful things.

Still, along the way you’ll surely come across those who are incapable of transcending certain thoughts, and won’t always wish you well.

If there’s a song that could go along with this, it would be Wild Horses, a modern melody that manifests poetry. Even if what we’re talking about doesn’t correlate a love song (though it could) the pronoun ‘he’ could be interchanged for the ache in your heart, perhaps to those who say you won’t make it, or to those who don’t believe in you. It goes a little like this:

I’m a dreamer
But it’s hard to sleep when your head’s not in it
I’ve been restless
Cause you disappeared and that’s all that’s missing
The Earth is loose under my shoes
There’s an angel
And he’s shaped like you, and I thought I knew him
There’s a window
And it’s dark inside, but the light was in it
This can’t be love if it hurts so much
I need to let go

I will survive and be the one who’s stronger
I will not beg you to stay
I will move on and you should know I mean it
Wild horses run in me

Our human hearts forget how strong they are
And they get lost along the way, hey
It’s not giving up, it’s letting go
And moving to a better place





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